My dear friends, my name is Mustafa Khan, I live in a small town near Bareilly. I am 27 years old, I am married, it has been four years since my marriage. My wife is very beautiful and beautiful. She is like an angel from heaven. I love her very much. She also loves me with all her heart. It’s like we both were made for each other. We have not had any children yet.
Our house is in an old locality. My uncle’s house is attached to our house. There is a wall about 5-6 feet high between the two houses. On this side of the wall, i.e. on our side, there are stairs to go to the upper floor.
My room is on the first floor of the house, which means my wife and I use those stairs to go up and down several times a day.
Now let me tell you about the real issue. It was summer those days. That day I had to leave for work a little early. So around eight in the morning, I was coming down the stairs to get ready and suddenly my legs stopped. Actually, my gaze fell on the window of the bathroom on the ground floor of my uncle’s house, across the middle wall.
The window of the bathroom was almost completely open and inside I saw that my cousin sister Shabnam was sitting completely naked and taking bath. I think there was no electricity supply at that time so he must have opened that window for light.
Seeing my young cousin sister bathing naked in the bathroom, I lost my senses, forgot my work and kept silently looking at that naked young body for about seven-eight minutes.
Shabnam is about six years younger than me, studying in BA in college. She leaves for college every day at around nine o’clock. I also leave around the same time.
Then since that day, I have woken up early every day on the pretext of taking a walk and have seen my sister bathing naked several times. My sister takes bath almost at a fixed time. In our Uttar Pradesh, due to lack of electricity, lights often remain off. So most of the bathroom windows are found open.
At that time in my house, my wife is busy in preparing breakfast etc. in the morning. My parents stay in their room, so I have no fear of being caught. On the other hand, no one goes out in uncle’s house either.
When I see my sister naked, I enjoy it a lot and my penis also gets erect. But later at night, when I remember my sister’s naked body while sleeping, I feel ashamed of myself as to what I am doing. At that time I decide that I will not do this from the next day. But the next morning my lust again brings me to the stairs. I can’t stop even if I want to.
In my view this is wrong.
Can you tell me whether it is right or wrong for me to do this? I don’t understand how to give up this bad habit of mine?